It's been a long time since my last post. Often, I do not feel I have anything to post. Or
I have become undisciplined or lazy. Writing involves a need to express something one can
no longer not share or put into words. So I come to this wrinkle in time. Perhaps I just need
to record an experience. Here we go.
Recently, I became aware, perhaps at a time somewhere between dreaming and consciously becoming awake. This is a grey time - when reality and dream time often intersect and we recall
fragments of streams that alert us to some things not fully integrated and we are left with an
urgency to integrate the experience into a greater whole.
Enough...on to the experience. Asleep and journeying toward an awakening time, I saw a reality
picturing granite warehouses graced in shadows with dawn-like shadings of light. Such buildings
dot the north end of Boston. The place was non specific. I was with three other companions. None
were recognizable as people I knew. We were just walking. Time was unspecific.
Suddenly we warped or gated into a different reality or time - still together. Light and shade
were indistinctive. As we continued to move another gate opened to two of us. The others
simply vanished in time. Just an occurrence, and unexplained in this dream time. Onward
through the space and a new time.
Suddenly a new waver of time came upon us. A new gate. We were somehow not quite centered
to transit it. We were almost stuck. I was passing through but not quite. And my companion was edging out of the change. I tried to recenter the two of us and could not make the proper adjustment.
I looked into the person's face and saw an aging process come and go from current age to older
age and back and forth. But a glow of love, contentment and deep understanding surrounded
the entire experience and I came out of sleep to wakefulness audibly speaking an expression of gratitude - "Thank You" and then hearing it repeated many times. Then I was fully awake.
In the dim light of the overnight, I tried to review and understand what I had truly just
experienced. My breathing throughout was regulated and comfortable. Nothing unusual.
Had I actually had a near death experience? Had I seen a revelation of what resurrection
might be? I have not been able to shake the experience or know what new thing God might
have been bringing to me.
So a part of me remains in this gray time or space seeking clarity. And yet the experience
itself felt so complete, I don't think I need to dig deeper. Whatever I felt, it was the web of
complete love, contentment and understanding that sustains me and tells me to just drink
this wonder into myself and just breathe, breathe and bask in a love I had never felt so
completely before..... Amen.
